Saturday, December 15, 2007

My Life in a Playlist

Lion King SoundtrackHakuna Matata

Oh, yes. An old Disney favorite with a message sings true. Perhaps I dive too deep for meaning sometimes, but this always stuck with me ever since I was a little tyke. Before the stresses of schoolwork and living in the complex world, I lived care free, scavenging my yard for bugs and other insects. Not for ingestion, but rather for entertainment. To watch those little critters scurry across the ground or put them in sand castles would entertain me for hours on end.

But to delve into the meaning of the song. “It means no worries for the rest of your days.” Nowadays, with the immense burden of homework and society’s expectations to be some sort of “career commando,” everyone needs a little Hakuna Matata. This is no implication to ignore homework or not to get a job, but to spend time with good friends and enjoy life. As everyone remembers, Simba had just met Timon and Pumba in the video, but they became best of friends and enjoyed some great times.

This song is a reminder to never forget the care-free days of my childhood. Whenever I have a seemingly unbearable load upon my shoulders, I am able to keep my composure. Not only is this a source of pride, this song is a source of relief and solace. The ability to laugh and play all through life is my idea of perfection, rarely allowing dark and bitter aspects to dampen my spirits. Hakuna Matata…what a wonderful phrase!



Cheap TrickI Want You to Want Me

Nothing like an anthem of unrequited love to put a depressing dent into the story of my life. My affection for the opposite sex stems back as far as the fifth grade, traversing this long and unsuccessful road until college. The result of my affections always remained the same, even if the girl was new to my class, from a different school, or even one of my best friends. All of these infatuations ended in heartache, regret, and social awkwardness.

“I want you to want me.” The feelings started off small at first. Only a small swig of the proverbial love potion had been consumed. However, these feelings began to snowball. Before long, the girl would exhibit signs of disinterest, which I did not notice of course. I do not mean to sound like a whiner, but this is painful for me to continue. So I will sum it up with three words: Unrequited love sucks.

However, Cheap-Trick’s lyrics did teach me something. I always want to be the person that comforts people in their time of need. “Didn’t I see you crying? Feeling all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dying.” My experiences with unrequited love made me a crusader against emotional pain. I always try to comfort my friends in need, and I always make sure my friends know I will be there for them. They always know they do not have to want, need, or beg me, because I will love them always.

The RembrandtsI’ll Be There For You

It has always seemed odd to me why there is not as much loyalty among friends as there used to be. Television shows, like House and Desperate Housewives, have portrayals of friends that backstab one another. The world needs to act more like Friends (how aptly named!), where differences are eventually forgiven, instead of held begrudgingly over a long period of time.

One can never put a specific time upon decisions that make up their personality, and this is no exception. Perhaps, as I have stated so very many times, that I was never the most popular guy growing up. My feelings about the warped realm of popularity helped develop sensitive, personable side, giving me the ability to empathize with the down trodden and broken hearted. This song states it simply in five words: I’ll be there for you.

One would think that nothing else needs to be said with these five words. However, The Rembrandts feel it necessary to emphasize their desire to be there to support friends, or even anyone in need. In a “dog eat dog” world, the feeling that someone will always be by your side is, in my opinion, the greatest motivator in the world. If not for a close network of friends, perhaps I would have turned out a darker, less sociable person…or maybe not have continued at all. This is my credo: to support and console anyone in need. My philosophy is not for my own self-benefit. As The Rembrandts state so beautifully, “I’ll be there for you, ‘cuz you’re there for me too…”

My Chemical RomanceFamous Last Words

Whenever I watch this video, I have the feeling the band is in a post-apocalyptic setting. In a way, this is a reminder of my life in the seventh grade, when my crush on the prettiest girl in my class got out. “So many bright lights that cast a shadow” reminds me of my peers and the torment I was subjected because of my affections. At times, this was overwhelming and I hated every bit of my existence, wondering if this was the life I was doomed to possess. And then the chorus, blaring in all its glory, “I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone.” I do not know where I possessed a drive to continue through the subjection of embarrassment, but I rolled through (surprisingly). Living life with fire and intensity is an important character to possess. The flames constantly spurting behind the band is almost indicative of their perseverance that no matter what happens, no matter the people or their insults, they will not submit. Why must we give up in the face of adversity? Perhaps it is the difficulty that makes our lives and the desire to live all the stronger. With such a fire, such a passion to continue living, why must the song be entitled “Famous Last Words?” These words of power and determination are most likely meant as inspiration from those who had traveled down the path of self-destruction, those that had given in to the “blinding bright lights.”

ShinedownI Dare You

Disregarding that the video is a Heroes montage, I focus more upon the lyrics of this song. Though I skew the lyrics a little, I derive a great message that powers me to be the person I am.

“I dare you to tell me to walk through fire, wear my soul, and call me a liar.” During my sophomore year of high school, I felt like I had no identity. I was not good at sports, I was not popular, and there were always a few people smarter that me. Sometimes, I was even picked on just for being myself. I felt as though my life was going to spiral into a black hole and I would remain an “unknown” for the rest of my life…or worse. That year, I made a pact with myself. I would live my life for me, not the desire to be popular. And, all of a sudden, I seemed happier…like a burden had been lifted from my shoulders and I was free. I knew, that from this point in my life and onward, I would have no need to chase impossible dreams of being the most popular. The lyric “are you still chasing the memories in shadows” fits there. I no longer needed to chase those memories.

“Even in madness, I know you still believe.” Though people may not like the person I am, all I have to do is believe in the person I am. So, if I may, I dare you to call me a liar. Because I know that what I say is true…and that’s all that matters.

LustraScotty Doesn’t Know

Whoever said “Ignorance is bliss” needs to be drawn and quartered. For those unfamiliar with Euro-Trip, Fiona had recently broken up with Scotty, who goes to a party to cheer up a little. The video is Scotty at that party, finding out that his Fiona had cheated on him the entire relationship with the singer of the band (who, in the movie, is played by Matt Damon).

I identify with Scotty all too well. Not that I had a cheating nympho girlfriend, but more so in the way that it seems people enjoy our pain. All those people are partying to a song about a girlfriend cheating with the lead singer. The worst part is not the obvious (and vivid) descriptions of the cheating, but that the tune is catchy (noted by Scotty’s best friend, his little brother, and even his father!). Back in high school, I was not the most popular guy. However, the girls in my school found it very amusing to try to make me become infatuated with them, leading me on for their own entertainment. Obviously, I caught on…after the third time or so. I thank God for delivering me from that hellhole to college in one piece (mentally, emotionally, and physically).

Believe it or not, I am extremely grateful for one aspect of my high school life, and that is the fact I can consider myself lucky that I was at my high school instead of Scotty’s. Lustra could have had another hit single entitled, “Sean’s a Gullible Idiot.”

Lazlo BaneSuperman

As I listen to this song, I think back to my years of high school and the numerous organizations (Future Business Leaders of America; Family, Career, and Community Leaders of America; Band…just to name a few) in which I held membership. Between the demands of these organizations (preparing a ten minute presentation on the economic growth of Kazakhstan), homework (reading a ten minute dialogue and writing a five page analysis over it), and work (bussing tables and washing dishes), I left little time for little pleasures in my life. I felt like my life was being run ragged and I might go insane from stress. I found this song by watching Scrubs, which is now one of my favorite television shows. This song really affected me by making me realize that I could not always expect to “do it all.” Because, as the song says, “You’ve crossed the finish line / Won the race but lost your mind / Was it worth it after all?” This little lyric made me think about how I was running my life. Is doing everything and winning really worth whittling away all my free time? And thus, I felt like a prisoner that had been freed. I am constantly reminded that I am human, and that the ability to do everything is not worth the effort or the consequences involved. Though in the song, Bane has been told “You got to work to feed the soul” and “You gotta break free to break the mold,” he knows that he can’t be perfect and do everything. Because of this song, I have learned to take life at a slower pace and enjoy life as it comes, making sure to avoid the rat race as much as possible. Because, hey, I’m no Superman.

Rob ThomasLittle Wonders

“Let it go. Let it roll right off you shoulder. Don’t you know? The hardest part is over.” These are easy words to say after carrying a canoe for half a mile, but also the beginning to the song. An unforgettable experience occurred the week before New Student Orientation, when my Liberal Arts Seminar class trekked in the Boundary Waters Canoe Area Wilderness. I came away from the trip not only with a handful of new friends, but an enlightened attitude.

Sometimes, we are caught up in the rush of city living to appreciate the “little wonders” that nature provides. I know I was. “Our lives are made in these small hours, these little wonders.” In the hours that I spent in the wilderness, either sitting on a lake shore or in a canoe as it glided silently across the water, there seemed to be a calming presence in the air. Even now, months after the experience, I still remember. “But I can not forget the way I feel right now.”

“Let your clarity define you.” The clearness of my thoughts will always be remembered from that experience…an experience such as that is rarely forgotten. If there is anything I wish to pass on, let it be this important message: Don’t be afraid to get lost once in a while. Not physically, but mentally. If only for a moment, let the burden of stress roll off your shoulders and let your mind be clear. “Time falls away, but these small hours, these little wonders still remain.”

Monday, December 10, 2007

Soundtrack to My Life (Rough Draft)

Lazlo Bane - I'm No Superman
As I listen to this song, I think back to my years of high school and the numerous organizations (Future Business Leaders of America; Family, Career, and Community Leaders of America; Band…just to name a few) in which I held membership. Between the demands of these organizations (preparing a ten minute presentation on the economic growth of Kazakhstan), homework (reading a ten minute dialogue and writing a five page analysis over it), and work (bussing tables and washing dishes), I left little time for little pleasures in my life. I felt like my life was being run ragged and I might go insane from stress. I found this song by watching Scrubs, which is now one of my favorite television shows. This song really affected me by making me realize that I could not always expect to “do it all.” Because, as the song says, “You’ve crossed the finish line / Won the race but lost your mind / Was it worth it after all?” This little lyric made me think about how I was running my life. Is doing everything and winning really worth whittling away all my free time? And thus, I felt like a prisoner that had been freed. I am constantly reminded that I am human, and that the ability to do everything is not worth the effort or the consequences involved. Though in the song, Bane has been told “You got to work to feed the soul” and “You gotta break free to break the mold,” he knows that he can’t be perfect and do everything. Because of this song, I have learned to take life at a slower pace and enjoy life as it comes, making sure to avoid the rat race as much as possible. Because, hey, I’m no Superman.
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My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words
Whenever I watch this video, I have the feeling the band is in a post-apocalyptic setting. In a way, this is a reminder of my life in the seventh grade, when my crush on the prettiest girl in my class got out. “So many bright lights that cast a shadow” reminds me of my peers and the torment I was subjected because of my affections. At times, this was overwhelming and I hated every bit of my existence, wondering if this was the life I was doomed to possess. And then the chorus, blaring in all its glory, “I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone.” I do not know where I possessed a drive to continue through the subjection of embarrassment, but I rolled through (surprisingly). Living life with fire and intensity is an important character to possess. The flames constantly spurting behind the band is almost indicative of their perseverance that no matter what happens, no matter the people or their insults, they will not submit. Why must we give up in the face of adversity? Perhaps it is the difficulty that makes our lives and the desire to live all the stronger. With such a fire, such a passion to continue living, why must the song be entitled “Famous Last Words?” These words of power and determination are most likely meant as inspiration from those who had traveled down the path of self-destruction, those that had given in to the “blinding bright lights.”
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The Lion King Soundtrack - Hakuna Matata
Oh, yes. An old Disney favorite with a message sings true. Perhaps I dive too deep for meaning sometimes, but this always stuck with me ever since I was a little tyke. Before the stresses of schoolwork and living in the complex world, I lived care free, scavenging my yard for bugs and other insects. Not for ingestion, but rather for entertainment. To watch those little critters scurry across the ground or put them in sand castles would entertain me for hours on end.

But to delve into the meaning of the song. “It means no worries for the rest of your days.” Nowadays, with the immense burden of homework and society’s expectations to be some sort of “career commando,” everyone needs a little Hakuna Matata. This is no implication to ignore homework or not to get a job, but to spend time with good friends and enjoy life. As everyone remembers, Simba had just met Timon and Pumba in the video, but they became best of friends and enjoyed some great times.

This song is a reminder to never forget the care-free days of my childhood. Whenever I have a seemingly unbearable load upon my shoulders, I am able to keep my composure. Not only is this a source of pride, this song is a source of relief and solace. The ability to laugh and play all through life is my idea of perfection, rarely allowing dark and bitter aspects to dampen my spirits. Hakuna Matata…what a wonderful phrase!
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Lustra - Scotty Doesn't Know
Whoever said “Ignorance is bliss” needs to be drawn and quartered. For those unfamiliar with Euro-Trip, Fiona had recently broken up with Scotty, who goes to a party to cheer up a little. The video is Scotty at that party, finding out that his Fiona had cheated on him the entire relationship with the singer of the band (who, in the movie, is played by Matt Damon).


I identify with Scotty all too well. Not that I had a cheating nympho girlfriend, but more so in the way that it seems people enjoy our pain. All those people are partying to a song about a girlfriend cheating with the lead singer. The worst part is not the obvious (and vivid) descriptions of the cheating, but that the tune is catchy (noted by Scotty’s best friend, his little brother, and even his father!). Back in high school, I was not the most popular guy. However, the girls in my school found it very amusing to try to make me become infatuated with them, leading me on for their own entertainment. Obviously, I caught on…after the third time or so. I thank God for delivering me from that hellhole to college in one piece (mentally, emotionally, and physically).


Believe it or not, I am extremely grateful for one aspect of my high school life, and that is the fact I can consider myself lucky that I was at my high school instead of Scotty’s. Lustra could have had another hit single entitled, “Sean’s a Gullible Idiot.”

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Shinedown - I Dare You
Disregarding that the video is a Heroes montage, I focus more upon the lyrics of this song. Though I skew the lyrics a little, I derive a great message that powers me to be the person I am.


“I dare you to tell me to walk through fire, wear my soul, and call me a liar.” During my sophomore year of high school, I felt like I had no identity. I was not good at sports, I was not popular, and there were always a few people smarter that me. Sometimes, I was even picked on just for being myself. I felt as though my life was going to spiral into a black hole and I would remain an “unknown” for the rest of my life…or worse. That year, I made a pact with myself. I would live my life for me, not the desire to be popular. And, all of a sudden, I seemed happier…like a burden had been lifted from my shoulders and I was free. I knew, that from this point in my life and onward, I would have no need to chase impossible dreams of being the most popular. The lyric “are you still chasing the memories in shadows” fits there. I no longer needed to chase those memories.


“Even in madness, I know you still believe.” Though people may not like the person I am, all I have to do is believe in the person I am. So, if I may, I dare you to call me a liar. Because I know that what I say is true…and that’s all that matters.

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Cheap Trick - I Want You to Want Me
Nothing like an anthem of unrequited love to put a depressing dent into the story of my life. My affection for the opposite sex stems back as far as the fifth grade, traversing this long and unsuccessful road until college. The result of my affections always remained the same, even if the girl was new to my class, from a different school, or even one of my best friends. All of these infatuations ended in heartache, regret, and social awkwardness.


“I want you to want me.” The feelings started off small at first. Only a small swig of the proverbial love potion had been consumed. However, these feelings began to snowball. Before long, the girl would exhibit signs of disinterest, which I did not notice of course. I do not mean to sound like a whiner, but this is painful for me to continue. So I will sum it up with three words: Unrequited love sucks.


However, Cheap-Trick’s lyrics did teach me something. I always want to be the person that comforts people in their time of need. “Didn’t I see you crying? Feeling all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dying.” My experiences with unrequited love made me a crusader against emotional pain. I always try to comfort my friends in need, and I always make sure my friends know I will be there for them. They always know they do not have to want, need, or beg me, because I will love them always.
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The Rembrandts - I'll Be There For You
It has always seemed odd to me why there is not as much loyalty among friends as there used to be. Television shows, like House and Desperate Housewives, have portrayals of friends that backstab one another. The world needs to act more like Friends (how aptly named!), where differences are eventually forgiven, instead of held begrudgingly over a long period of time.


One can never put a specific time upon decisions that make up their personality, and this is no exception. Perhaps, as I have stated so very many times, that I was never the most popular guy growing up. My feelings about the warped realm of popularity helped develop sensitive, personable side, giving me the ability to empathize with the down trodden and broken hearted. This song states it simply in five words: I’ll be there for you.


One would think that nothing else needs to be said with these five words. However, The Rembrandts feel it necessary to emphasize their desire to be there to support friends, or even anyone in need. In a “dog eat dog” world, the feeling that someone will always be by your side is, in my opinion, the greatest motivator in the world. If not for a close network of friends, perhaps I would have turned out a darker, less sociable person…or maybe not have continued at all. This is my credo: to support and console anyone in need. My philosophy is not for my own self-benefit. As The Rembrandts state so beautifully, “I’ll be there for you, ‘cuz you’re there for me too…”
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Rob Thomas - Little Wonders
“Let it go. Let it roll right off you shoulder. Don’t you know? The hardest part is over.” These are easy words to say after carrying a canoe for half a mile, but also the beginning to the song. An unforgettable experience occurred the week before New Student Orientation, when my Liberal Arts Seminar class trekked in the Boundary Waters Canoe Area Wilderness. I came away from the trip not only with a handful of new friends, but an enlightened attitude.


Sometimes, we are caught up in the rush of city living to appreciate the “little wonders” that nature provides. I know I was. “Our lives are made in these small hours, these little wonders.” In the hours that I spent in the wilderness, either sitting on a lake shore or in a canoe as it glided silently across the water, there seemed to be a calming presence in the air. Even now, months after the experience, I still remember. “But I can not forget the way I feel right now.”


“Let your clarity define you.” The clearness of my thoughts will always be remembered from that experience…an experience such as that is rarely forgotten. If there is anything I wish to pass on, let it be this important message: Don’t be afraid to get lost once in a while. Not physically, but mentally. If only for a moment, let the burden of stress roll off your shoulders and let your mind be clear. “Time falls away, but these small hours, these little wonders still remain.”

Monday, November 19, 2007

First Music Video Ever

Foo Fighters - Learn To Fly

I know my music videos seem to have a common theme of drug use (or implied drug use), but when I was a young lad, I saw this music video for the first time. Although I did not know why a fat lady was hallucinating that some guy’s head was a cheeseburger or why the pilot saw the steward flying outside the window, I could see that the members of Foo Fighters went to the cockpit and landed the plane safely at an airport, saving everyone on board. Though I could not grasp my cognitive processes at the time, I now realize the video had an impact on me. I realized that bravery in an individual is only measurable by their actions. Dave Grohl and the rest of the band acted while the rest of the plane panicked about the loss of control of the plane. Though they saved themselves, they inevitably saved all the people on the plane as well. To show that kind of attitude in an atmosphere of terror and panic reveals a high degree of bravery. After viewing this video, I had an attitude to put other people before myself. No matter the situation, I would be sure that other people were taken care of before I would take care of myself. Of course, there are times that I will treat myself to some simple pleasure, but in a social setting, I make sure that other people are fine before me. Because of this attitude, I will be prepared to take control of large aircraft while the crew is incapacitated from marijuana brewed coffee. Hopefully, a large “Learn to Fly” manual will be located underneath the seat.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

My Least Favorite Music Video


All I can say about this video is, "What...the...*bleep*?" The fact that I dislike the video is not because of the song. “I Believe in a Thing Called Love” by The Darkness is an awesome song, don’t get me wrong. However, the video gives me the feeling like I am tripping way too much on LSD or some other hallucinogenic drug. Quite honestly, I would not be comfortable with a giant, furry object with four appendages drying me off after a bath. Not to mention that a leather, one piece outfit with a “V cut” extending to the abdomen creeps me out a little bit as well. Giant crabs throwing rocks…I did a quick check of the water I was drinking to be sure that it was safe. After grabbing a new glass of water, I saw what appeared to be a giant space squid fornicating with the spacecraft where they were performing. Enough was enough. I just shook my head and continued cruising YouTube.
However, I must give credit where it is due. Justin Hawkins, the lead singer for The Darkness at the time, has an incredible vocal range. His brother, Dan, the lead guitarist, is freaking unbelievable in the rhythms and chords that he plays. This band is amazing and I love their sound, but the music video is so horrendous, it is hilarious.
To get down to brass tacks, I honestly cannot choose a least favorite music video because I really don’t watch music videos much. That reason and the fact that I could not do any better than the guys performing in the video, so I normally keep my mouth shut unless I prove that I could do so. In all honesty, this is not my least favorite music video…just a video that I thought could fit the category. Hope you enjoyed reading this filler entry!

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Favorite Music Video--My Chemical Romance "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)"

"You like DnD (Dungeons and Dragons), Audrey Hepburn, Fangoria, Harry Houdini, and croquet. You can't swim, you can't dance, and you don't know karate. Face it; you're never going to make it!" –Ray Toro
"I don't want to make it. I just want..." –Gerard Way

These words open to my favorite music video to date, My Chemical Romance’s “I’m Not Okay (I Promise).” Part of the reason I am drawn to this video is because I was never totally accepted at my old high school. In the video, the members of the band attend a preppy school and are portrayed as the dorky kids that are bullied by the jocks. I was never bullied; I just never really fit in with the rest of the crowd. I was never invited to parties or other social gatherings; I was just ignored for the most part. In the video, though, the band members are not going to take this bullying lying down. Throughout the video, the band members are exacting their revenge upon the bullies through humiliation tactics, like putting prescription pill containers in one boy’s locker to insinuate that he either uses many different steroids or that he has more problems that require prescription medicine than the people he bullies. I really wish I could have done something to change the situation at my old high school, but I never did. In a way, I am envious of these guys. Even though the setting is fictional, this video is an inspiration to dorks and other uncool people that they do not have to accept being bullied. However, a showdown with lacrosse sticks and croquet mallets is probably not an acceptable way to solve differences (no matter how cool that would be!). Basically, be yourself. That is the only thing that matters in life…and to hell with “cool” kids!